Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Well hello 8 months later.... sheesh.




















Hello all. I kind of forgot i had my personal blog. Ive been busy with my jazzy hoe blog that i neglect to update my
individual one. I notice i haven't written since October. I suppose you can say A LOT has happened in the past 8 months. Some i don't care to talk about.. some that are positive :) I now reside in the guest house at my grandparents in New Harmony. I like to refer to it as "The Cottage." I am no Longer with Maverik, and am currently looking for work but finding a job in cedar is like finding a needle in a hay stack. Because of financial issues always getting in the way i have yet to attend hair school... which is why i even moved here a year ago. I would still love to learn the trade, and at the same moment my dad has given me some books and I am studying to be a fire inspector. Maybe i can do both one day. Utah is beautiful and is filled with my family and other not too shabby people.. but i don't think it's for me. Vegas wasnt for me either. As soon as I take care of some things i plan on getting outta here and going where ever the wind takes me (of course having a job and place to live lined up first.) I still continue to write all the time. It's my therapy. I can't believe im going to be 25 in October. It's kinda of freaking me out. I was reading some of my very first posts on here and wow its just nuts how much i have changed... and yet how alike i still am, and that was 2 years ago.
..... Some thoughts....
The sky has lost it's color The sun has turned to grey At least that's how it feels to me Whenever you're away I crawl up in the corner As I watch the minutes pass Each one brings me closer to The time you're comin' back I can't take the distance I can't take the miles I can't take the time until I next see you smile I can't take the distance And I'm not ashamed That with every breath I take I'm callin your name But I can't take the distance I still believe my feelings But sometimes I feel too much I make believe you're close to me But it ain't close enough Not nearly close enough I can't take the distance I can't take the miles I can't take the time until I next see you smile I can't take the distance And I'm not ashamed That with every breath I take I'm callin your name I brave fire and I brave rain To be by your side I'd do anything I can't take the distance I will go the distance I will go the miles That's how much you mean to me 'Cause I can't take the distance I can't take these miles I can't take the time until I next see you smile I can't take the distance And I'm not ashamed That with every breath I take I'm calling your name I can't take the distance It's hard to remember As long as you're away When I find solace There's only one way